Time Out to Contemplate…Waiting on God

I missed more than a month of blogging, not because of writer’s block, but because I needed to step back from “the fray.” God was reminding me that we are not at war with each other as Christians. I was becoming too invested in “proving” my views were God’s views, of winning arguments. During a particularly awkward moment, when in the middle of arguing about Trump’s ban on Muslims with a Christian brother as conservative as I was liberal, I ended with a rather self-righteous comment that he was a hard nut for the Holy Spirit to crack! As I closed my iPad it was as if God was whispering in my ear…”he is you!!” At once I was aware of how similar he and I were, despite our theological differences.

Of course God lead me to apologize and we ended on a good note a few days later. But I was troubled with how easily my zeal for the Lord can turn to strife. I decided to give blogging a rest while spending more time in prayer and contemplating God’s great love. What should not come as a surprise, was that God heard my prayers and opened my heart to a deeper understanding of Himself through Bradley Jersak’s wonderful book: “A More Christlike God: A More Beautiful Gospel.” …”What if God is like Jesus? What if the personality of God is identical to the personality of the man called Jesus of Nazareth portrayed in the Gospels?” The result of Jersak’s book is atonement theology centered around a non-coercive, loving and sacrificial God who calls us to sacrifice as well.

I confess, I was quite taken aback by the concept, as most conservative theologies start with the defense of Scripture and move on to God’s attributes, His irresistible Will being a primary one. But as Jersak patiently explains, starting with either assumption will end up with a misunderstood Heavenly Father. In the weeks to come I hope to share more from his book with you. I believe it is the most valuable and challenging book I have yet to read on Christian theology. It is also the most lucid and convincing explanation of the Gospel I have come across.
God bless.

Author: socalkdl

Like so many Evangelicals of late, I have grown weary of the so-called "Culture Wars." I can agree with Philip Yancey in his "Vanishing Grace: Whatever Happened to the Good News," that grace within the church seems to be a vanishing commodity. Although still connected to the Evangelical church I have often felt distant and removed from portions of its theology and interaction with a Post-Christian society. A few years ago I felt it necessary, for my own spiritual health, to step back and "deconstruct" my theological belief set. I had become too enmeshed in the Evangelical "bubble" to honestly and critically assess my conservative theological doctrines. What has followed in the past few years is my own journey of rediscovering the Bible, and, above all, rediscovering God. It has become a journey that still surprises and delights me. Not everything is new. The faith first delivered to me by the Evangelical church has been reaffirmed. The Good News is still the best deal out there. But there have been new discoveries as well. It is my hope that my posts encourage your own questions and reassessments. It is my conviction that, because we see through a mirror darkly, there are questions that are valid to ask, and that we should not be afraid to ask them. God bless you in your own spiritual journeys. Kirk Leavens

2 thoughts on “Time Out to Contemplate…Waiting on God”

  1. Thank u for this!…Lol…I Have recently become extremely conservative and called to write for An extremely conservative publication… So I find myself so appreciative of the truth u speak of…your honest humility… I have heard the Lord say the very same words about folks I was frustrated with .. ” he is you”… And the call right now for believers to wait on Him…Thanks for sharing!..

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